There are nights where I just can’t sleep, It’s as if the moment I just want to close my eyes is the time where my mind feels like it’s the best opportunity to begin racing with thoughts, memories, and ideas. As I try searching for an off switch, I realize that there may not even be one and my will just have to deal with another restless night. And for few hours, I become a philosopher as I questioned the meaning of life and why the world is the way it is. I become a storyteller as I come up with creative scenarios in my head that may never occur. I become a historian as I able to remember my past while missing or regretting it. In this insomniac time, I lie wide awake trying to figure out my life when all I want to do is to stop thinking.
And the weirdest thing is how alone I feel during these moments. How it feels like I am the only one awake as people were dreaming in another realm. But truth is, those nights that I can’t sleep, there is someone else out there too. There is someone driving the empty roads hoping that it will bring some clarity. There is someone who is on the internet, listening to music, or watching TV as they are hoping it will take their minds of the things they don’t want to think about. And there is someone like me, just laying in bed thinking. Letting my mind race with my deepest thoughts. At the darkness of night, thousands of souls are awake with me… not being able to sleep.
11:02pm - Philippine Time
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